I didn't really mean it when I said that though. What I really meant was if this is the right one for me everything will go right and smoothly, there won't be fighting, and we'd we just naturally want to and know how to please each other. Well, guess I did mean my words because I had to take a stand to break us in right.
It was a stupid fight really over nothing. Well it was over a few things. Him and I can agree it could be over the drama of other people. Though, I'd disagree because this wasn't the case. The case was it was over the drama he feels will be caused by other people. I don't do drama though and he's the one that claims it still exists. I believe we are at the ages in our lives where drama can't get to you and if it does - - you gotta let it go.
Well, I broke up with him over our own relationship drama. Not really though cause he's still my man, my boyfriend but on Facebook I'm single and I'll let you in on why. I sent him a sweetly, cutely worded text message the other week on how he could make my heart feel if he accepted my friend request on FB. I then went on to add how it would make my soul feel too if he sent me a relationship request. What ended up happening this week later; he deleted his Facebook over a fight that “I don't really love him.” If you ask him though, he didn't delete the page. We both know he did but he says, “no you know the phone wasn't working.” Whatever- the page is deleted, fess up to it. See, he'd let that run into a future fight but I - - I have already let it go all I hope is that we don't argue over how the page got deleted again. Maybe he's right. Maybe he didn't delete the page. How can I be wrong? This isn't what the fight was even over it was over. . .
Huh? What? It's the past. We were fighting over each others past. I just wanted a little run-down on an ex-relationship of his but while he was fighting with me instead of communicating with me on what was upsetting him about my past (FB pics of boys) - - I would of told him anything he wanted to know about any guy friend, any ex who wasn't ever really even my BF story he wanted to know. Thing is, I told him most of these stories weeks ago again. I know he pays attention, I do. Faces and names and re-tales of the story, I know this is what our relationship needs for me to make things work for him. Thing is, he just doesn't believe me when I tell him I've been a good, vigilant girl the best I could be for my dream man, and guess what, he's still my dream man which is how he even got with me! (and I do only credit myself here because he is just an amazing man and I need to point out that I deserve him.)
Anyways, I'm single on FB till he reinstates his and wants to share with his world that he is mine because I know how much he adores going through my FB wall while logged into my account and seeing all the cute, 'I LOVE HIM< I LOVE US' things I post. Whether he wanted to admit that in front of our friends or not last night while I was reading other people's status out loud that my friend seemed to enjoy and if we were alone he would of too-- which is where the whole 'you weren't paying attention to me part came into play--. But, you know I don't love him and I was paying NO attention to him. Okay. Doesn't it sound like he wasn't paying attention to what I was reading him? Ohhhh it is water under the bridge cause he's cute and made up with the sweetest words to me. I was eating out of the palm of his hand last night, trying for affection, hoping he adored how much I love and want him. Hoping he realizes I'm not leaving him ever! But, flip side of it - - get the 'H' out of here, you weren't even deserving of all that loving my lover.
Guess I did mean the title to this blog. I am breaking him in right. Excuse me, I mean us right although, I'm already broken in cause he laid down his ground rules and I am following them but he needs to meet me half way on them. I have friends some may be guys but you know what? I know a lot of them have been waiting a long time to see me happy with a man and I do believe in my heart I found someone they will adore as I do and I also believe in my heart, he'll enjoy time spent with these people.
So, the break-up. I had to let him know I am not getting stuck in a love, deep relationship if he does feel as deeply about me as he says he does if there is fighting involved. I was sweet, attentive and affectionate while he was mad. And he did walk me to my door and kiss me good night. After though, we had to be away from each other. That was the first conclusion we had when we mended the fight. We simply didn't want to leave each other and spend the night apart. We have to though. Our life circumstances lead it to be that way. We both know in time though, it won't always have to be that way. Which makes me very happy, hopeful, and dedicated to working for a good future for us.
So, my advice for all of you in love and have some jealous, miss-communicated bugs in the relationship: don't get angry at the same time as each other. When one is angry let them get out their frustrations, leave the situation for a little and then come back and let them know how you feel. Let them know you want it to work but they didn't hold up to their end of making the relationship always happy and fun like the majority of the time spent together and if you do it right, (no I don't mean threats, I mean let out your real feelings) you can get your point across while the other is no longer mad and there now the ones who would do anything to make the relationship work. If the good didn't significantly out weigh the bad, you wouldn't want to be with the person. No matter how good the love making sex is or how strong the attraction is. Which is of course a lie because yes, people stay together for those reasons - - or so I heard.
I did have to explain though how I did have and I do not ever again want to have a history of always breaking up relationship. The past always breaking up relationship was so bad I meant the break-up time and time again, but I was stuck. Hey you know what? I didn't even break up with him we may agree on a relationship anniversary date but he was single on Facebook. Well, I did break-up then I guess. I needed him to understand - - I'm breaking up with you now for good! The only other option is you have to compromise - - and he is. I'm breaking up with you now, not down the road, to end the hurt and pain and suffering this relationship can cause both of us early on. Back to the compromise . .. I know, I know, I have to too, and I do! I was. I feel really bad now that I upset him and I can and appreciate that it is I who can give him someone to care for him for a lifetime as he says his heart wishes to have. I'm lucky I am the one who gets to hold him, kiss his sweet, soft face and assure him - - I'm here now, I'm here forever! 143++ kisses on that soft face once I get to my quota of a 1,000 I'll re-start and one day, I know it to be true, I'll give him 1,000 all at once, counting a reasoned thank-you for loving me every kiss on the way.
Well relationship goers, communication is definitely key and so I say; “We don't have to break each other in. We're sharing ourselves, our desires on what we need from the other to make the relationship work.” and so I hope and I can see rainbows and butterflies and lifes dreams and goals coming true if we stick together and therefore, I do promise every promise I ever made to him. We work hard for the one's we love, don't we?
It was a stupid fight really over nothing. Well it was over a few things. Him and I can agree it could be over the drama of other people. Though, I'd disagree because this wasn't the case. The case was it was over the drama he feels will be caused by other people. I don't do drama though and he's the one that claims it still exists. I believe we are at the ages in our lives where drama can't get to you and if it does - - you gotta let it go.
Well, I broke up with him over our own relationship drama. Not really though cause he's still my man, my boyfriend but on Facebook I'm single and I'll let you in on why. I sent him a sweetly, cutely worded text message the other week on how he could make my heart feel if he accepted my friend request on FB. I then went on to add how it would make my soul feel too if he sent me a relationship request. What ended up happening this week later; he deleted his Facebook over a fight that “I don't really love him.” If you ask him though, he didn't delete the page. We both know he did but he says, “no you know the phone wasn't working.” Whatever- the page is deleted, fess up to it. See, he'd let that run into a future fight but I - - I have already let it go all I hope is that we don't argue over how the page got deleted again. Maybe he's right. Maybe he didn't delete the page. How can I be wrong? This isn't what the fight was even over it was over. . .
Huh? What? It's the past. We were fighting over each others past. I just wanted a little run-down on an ex-relationship of his but while he was fighting with me instead of communicating with me on what was upsetting him about my past (FB pics of boys) - - I would of told him anything he wanted to know about any guy friend, any ex who wasn't ever really even my BF story he wanted to know. Thing is, I told him most of these stories weeks ago again. I know he pays attention, I do. Faces and names and re-tales of the story, I know this is what our relationship needs for me to make things work for him. Thing is, he just doesn't believe me when I tell him I've been a good, vigilant girl the best I could be for my dream man, and guess what, he's still my dream man which is how he even got with me! (and I do only credit myself here because he is just an amazing man and I need to point out that I deserve him.)
Anyways, I'm single on FB till he reinstates his and wants to share with his world that he is mine because I know how much he adores going through my FB wall while logged into my account and seeing all the cute, 'I LOVE HIM< I LOVE US' things I post. Whether he wanted to admit that in front of our friends or not last night while I was reading other people's status out loud that my friend seemed to enjoy and if we were alone he would of too-- which is where the whole 'you weren't paying attention to me part came into play--. But, you know I don't love him and I was paying NO attention to him. Okay. Doesn't it sound like he wasn't paying attention to what I was reading him? Ohhhh it is water under the bridge cause he's cute and made up with the sweetest words to me. I was eating out of the palm of his hand last night, trying for affection, hoping he adored how much I love and want him. Hoping he realizes I'm not leaving him ever! But, flip side of it - - get the 'H' out of here, you weren't even deserving of all that loving my lover.
Guess I did mean the title to this blog. I am breaking him in right. Excuse me, I mean us right although, I'm already broken in cause he laid down his ground rules and I am following them but he needs to meet me half way on them. I have friends some may be guys but you know what? I know a lot of them have been waiting a long time to see me happy with a man and I do believe in my heart I found someone they will adore as I do and I also believe in my heart, he'll enjoy time spent with these people.
So, the break-up. I had to let him know I am not getting stuck in a love, deep relationship if he does feel as deeply about me as he says he does if there is fighting involved. I was sweet, attentive and affectionate while he was mad. And he did walk me to my door and kiss me good night. After though, we had to be away from each other. That was the first conclusion we had when we mended the fight. We simply didn't want to leave each other and spend the night apart. We have to though. Our life circumstances lead it to be that way. We both know in time though, it won't always have to be that way. Which makes me very happy, hopeful, and dedicated to working for a good future for us.
So, my advice for all of you in love and have some jealous, miss-communicated bugs in the relationship: don't get angry at the same time as each other. When one is angry let them get out their frustrations, leave the situation for a little and then come back and let them know how you feel. Let them know you want it to work but they didn't hold up to their end of making the relationship always happy and fun like the majority of the time spent together and if you do it right, (no I don't mean threats, I mean let out your real feelings) you can get your point across while the other is no longer mad and there now the ones who would do anything to make the relationship work. If the good didn't significantly out weigh the bad, you wouldn't want to be with the person. No matter how good the love making sex is or how strong the attraction is. Which is of course a lie because yes, people stay together for those reasons - - or so I heard.
I did have to explain though how I did have and I do not ever again want to have a history of always breaking up relationship. The past always breaking up relationship was so bad I meant the break-up time and time again, but I was stuck. Hey you know what? I didn't even break up with him we may agree on a relationship anniversary date but he was single on Facebook. Well, I did break-up then I guess. I needed him to understand - - I'm breaking up with you now for good! The only other option is you have to compromise - - and he is. I'm breaking up with you now, not down the road, to end the hurt and pain and suffering this relationship can cause both of us early on. Back to the compromise . .. I know, I know, I have to too, and I do! I was. I feel really bad now that I upset him and I can and appreciate that it is I who can give him someone to care for him for a lifetime as he says his heart wishes to have. I'm lucky I am the one who gets to hold him, kiss his sweet, soft face and assure him - - I'm here now, I'm here forever! 143++ kisses on that soft face once I get to my quota of a 1,000 I'll re-start and one day, I know it to be true, I'll give him 1,000 all at once, counting a reasoned thank-you for loving me every kiss on the way.
Well relationship goers, communication is definitely key and so I say; “We don't have to break each other in. We're sharing ourselves, our desires on what we need from the other to make the relationship work.” and so I hope and I can see rainbows and butterflies and lifes dreams and goals coming true if we stick together and therefore, I do promise every promise I ever made to him. We work hard for the one's we love, don't we?